Buenas Dias!!
This
week was a good week! It was hard and I learned a lot about myself. I
also had a big change of heart and my purpose as a missionary has
changed :)
This
week we didn't have changes... well we had changes but my companion and
I are staying together. It will be really interesting because it is his
last month and a half as a missionary and after the change will finish
his mission and go home. This will be interesting because I will have to
keep him a little bit in line because he is starting to get trunky
(ready to go home and thinking about home a lot). It also means that I
will get a lot of his stuff that he leaves behind, Woohoo! ;) The last
thing it means is that I am guaranteed to have a new companion next
change. I hope to be training a brand new missionary because that would
be super awesome.
This
week was hard for a couple reasons. We didn't have any progressing
investigators, which means that we don't really have anyone who seems
like they are moving towards baptism. It was hard because I am a full
blown missionary now, so my responsibilities have increased, again
forcing me out of my comfort zone. Finally it was hard because everyone
seems to be going through hard times and as missionaries they tell their
problems to us looking for help. I love to help them but I felt super
weighed down because of the sorrow and problems they were having.
Because
it was a tough week I was forced to do alot of things which I wouldn't
have done if I was comfortable, forced me to use and rely on the spirit
more, and most of all made me change. This week I changed because I
really learned what it means to love other people, not just say I love
them, or superficially hope things go well for them, but to truly love
them. I changed my desire for my mission, no longer am I here just to do
my Duty to God, or to "Give my two years", I am here to help people
change their lives or improve their lives by coming to Christ and
repenting and guiding them to the path where the blessings await them.
This change came on a Wednesday.
Wednesday was
the hardest day of the week. I was having a small pity party for myself
because I was scared of my new responsibilities and I felt inadequate to
do them. It was also a day when we found out about alot of troubles
people were having. We got to a lesson with a member and were talking
with them. We learned of the problems coming from the choices that some
of them made, the problems coming from other people (members included),
and problems from sins or bad doings of other people. I just wanted to
cry out "WHY IS THE WORLD SO HARD AND BAD!" In this moment I understood
the prophets of the book of Mormon who felt sorrow for the sins of their
people and the decisions to go astray and the suffering that it caused
other people! In that instant I felt my desire to help everyone avoid
those problems, sufferings, and grief and received the desire to change
all of that.
This
week I have changed to become a more loving, devoted servant of Christ.
I am still the same funny, witty, kind of cocky, loving person, but now
with the true love of Christ towards all of the fellow people around
me.
This
week I also learned the power of fasting. We fasted this Sunday for fast
Sunday and we received the miracles for it. We had 2 people who aren't
members or investigators come to church, feel the spirit, and tell us
they have the desire to be baptized. We will see what happens with them,
but the blessing of having the opportunity to teach someone who has the
desire to be baptized was by far worth the fast. I know that we will
receive the blessings of heaven if we fast and follow the commandments
of God.
This
week not many physical things happened, not much changed, but I
changed. I changed and started to become the person that God wants me to
be. I changed and began to develop the attributes of Christ. I changed
and began to become the missionary God wants me to be.
I
know that problems will come, but we need them to grow. They may be
hard, difficult, and quizas (maybe) nearly impossible, but God will always
provide a way, and will change you on the way, to become the person you
need to be.
I love you all so much, and I hope that you are all staying golden, and becoming even more golden.
Love,
Elder Nielson
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